{"id":571,"date":"2011-04-05T11:29:34","date_gmt":"2011-04-05T18:29:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dailyfieldnotes.com\/?p=571"},"modified":"2011-04-05T13:32:03","modified_gmt":"2011-04-05T20:32:03","slug":"marsh-to-city","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dailyfieldnotes.com\/?p=571","title":{"rendered":"Wanting to be back on the marsh"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Out on the marsh, I watch birds. A tall, white crane, standing still at the edge of the water. I take a picture, wishing I had brought a zoom lens, knowing the photo wouldn\u2019t capture the feeling I have here. The feeling of being open, relaxed, taking in the world. Suddenly the crane lifts off, flies above, wings large and almost awkward for the size of its body. It swoops around, flies out of sight, and I keep walking. Smelling fresh air blowing off the water, feeling fresh spring grass against my ankles. The next day, my body still relaxed from a weekend in Pt. Reyes, I can still see the orange poppies when I close my eyes, feel the open space and rolling green hills.<\/p>\n

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Back in the city I worry about which windows are open, whether I locked the backdoor, and what time I have to leave today. I think all too much about clothes though my wardrobe doesn\u2019t matter in grad school. I walk to yoga class, grateful to have found a teacher nearby. I worry about the progress I\u2019m making on my thesis, whether it\u2019s enough, what it means to me, what I will become when I finish. What if there are no jobs I\u2019m interested in applying for next year? I feel completely open to shifting my career for family, yet children feel further away than ever. I\u2019ve stopped thinking ahead, planning, thinking about what things will look like if I get pregnant this month, or next. Who knows?<\/p>\n

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I stall this morning, making a quiche for tonight\u2019s class potluck instead of writing first, as I know I should. Chopping broccoli from last week\u2019s farm box, weighing down the crust with rice and putting it in the oven for 10 minutes, mixing together eggs and milk, throwing in thyme, cheese; all the while listening to the radio, a show on Alzheimer\u2019s and new research about its causes and cures. \u201cThe scariest thing for people is losing cognitive functioning\u201d a doctor says. \u201cI think, therefore I am Shakespeare wrote, but he might as well have written \u201cI remember, therefore I was, for without our memories, who are we?\u201d<\/p>\n

It’s a good question. What will I remember from this time in my life?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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